OtakuNoChronicle

I ran and ran eternally. And when I reached out for air I drowned. I wanted to hide I wanted to die I wanted something I yearned for and yet I didn't. What is this feeling of drowning yet breathing, living yet dying protecting yet destroying. What is this feeling called? I dont know I just know that this feeling is different from all the others. Is this called living? If it is then I'd rather not live. But its never my choice to live or die, to breath or drown, to love or hate Its always someone else's but yet it is my heart thats living those emotions.